Would not God have discovered it, since He knows the secrets of the heart?
Psalm 44:21 NIV
Today we begin moving into the spiritual principles behind the Twelve Steps, and it is fitting that we begin with an exploration of the principle of honesty. The further we progress into self-exploration, the more important it becomes to be purposeful about not only getting honest, but staying honest—with others, with ourselves, and with God.
It’s been said that a half-truth is a whole lie and sometimes as we move deeper into our recovery work, we can become torn, wanting to please our treatment team, our therapist, our friends and family—and still wanting (desperately at times) to hang on to and “please” our eating disorders. And so we play both sides, sometimes even unconsciously. A friend may ask if we’d like to have lunch, and perhaps we answer that we’ve already eaten, omitting the detail that what we ate was, say, an apple (hardly a meal). Or maybe your doctor asks if you’ve been purging and you answer “no,” based upon the fact that you haven’t yet purged today.
Half-truths, as far as God is concerned, are indeed whole lies. And what’s more, it doesn’t quite matter who we are able to fool with our cleverly disguised lies of omission, because God Himself is the head of our treatment team, and there is no fooling God. He sees all. He knows all. Nothing gets past Him, not even those things we do not dare to admit to ourselves.
But here’s the good news: None of it taints or even touches His amazing love for us. God looks at our hearts— clearly, precisely, penetratingly. The contents of our heart are laid bare before Him, because He is the God who sees. He is light and there is no darkness in Him, so He sees all, all the time. All is all He can see.
The difference between being honest with others and being honest with God is that the knowledge of others often depends upon our choice to reveal the truth, but God’s knowledge is entirely unaffected by, and independent from, our disclosure. He knows it all anyway. He loves us anyway.
And when we truly grasp this, it frees us up to begin moving toward God in truth and transparency, thus tearing the veil that feels as if it separates us from Him, keeping us from intimate prayer and relationship with Him.
Honesty with God is an invitation to be truly known.
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Jena Morrow’s debut book, “Hope,” chronicles her nearly three-decade-long battle with eating and body image issues. In her second book, “Hope for the Hollow,” Jena takes readers on a thirty-day devotional journey to challenge eating disordered thoughts and beliefs in light of God’s Word. In addition to being a writer, speaker, and activist for eating disorder awareness and prevention, Jena works as the Alumnae Coordinator at Timberline Knolls in Lemont, IL, a premiere residential treatment center for women and girls battling eating disorders, substance abuse, mood disorders, self-injury, and PTSD. Jena makes her home in a suburb of Chicago with her son, Jaden, his pet snake Stephanie, and a mischievous cat named Prim.